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Clowns

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 13:09:04 GMT

We, the Homo sapiens are spectacular, you know. Humans are so awfully complex and awe-inspiringly intelligent.

The fact that we are Good Lord's creation and design never fails to amaze me - the details on how every bloody cell and tissue work together and make us whole. How often do we take a step back to wonder and appreciate what our body has done for us? Or do we wake up e very morning and curse FML because it's just another bloody day?

He once told me that every day is a gift, I have to count my blessing and be thankful for whatever I have.

"Say a little grace and put a smile on your face before you start your day dear!"

I always believe that people can change, more often for the better. Or at least I used to believe that was how things work. I mean why want to be mean if you can be nice? Why choose to be a misery instead of a blessing to the others? Again, people have the power to act and behave how they want to and you can't control THIS reality.

But it bothers me when people throw hurtful words to each other. There's a huge difference between being sarcastic and being an asshole. Sarcasm is a fine characteristic which I truly admire. It is an art which not many people can master. In another words, sarcasm comes with consideration and moderation. And people ENJOY it because it is a FACT!

When an asshole tries to perform this art and fails miserably not once but zillion times, you become FED UP with the lameness.

You give up!

"Why force yourself to like someone if you always end up feeling hurt?" he asked.

Probably I'm just too sensitive and emotional, I need to buck up myself.

"But if they are truly your friend, you don't deserve that. Those are clowns. You tried once, twice and even trice, but you've got to know your bottom line. Someone who constantly tries to put you down's not a friend. You can't please everyone in this world but the key is to be nice and be SINCERE to people, dear."

We HOMO sapiens are EMO sapiens too!!

I'm still growing, pardon me please...

Deeper

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 23:27:38 GMT

yea ich seh nicht wie es besser werden kann
wenn ein kind hier schon allein f�r sein handy durch ein messer sterben kann
mach es besser, wer es kann, man ich check es nicht
die die dazu in der lage sind verstecken sich
und dem rest gehts so schlecht wie das wetter ist
der frust w�chst
opfer du guckst jetzt besser nicht
arme umkreisen k�lte und hunger
und f�r viele die ihrn job aufgeben m�ssen geht die welt damit unter
wir wollen mensch sein viele sind noch welten darunter
aber wenn wir helfen dann geschehen seltene wunder
lass uns gehn wir ham noch viele schritte zu machen
mach die ersten beiden um danach den dritten zu machen
ich mein es ernst

wir tr�umen auch von wohlstand und frieden am block
aber die wahrheit ist: niemand ist zufrieden am block
mentalit�t ist:"schei� auf alle" weil es euch nicht interessiert
im endefekt sind hier noch nichtmal deutsche integriert
check mal alles kann besser werden
h�tten wir nur etwas mehr an echten werten
wir k�nnten lern wie man durch erg�nzung w�chst
und vom gef�hl w�r jeder tag wie die WM 06
das problem mit dem denken, der glaube fr�her war es besser
fr�her war der f�hrer alter fr�her wars nicht besser
deshalb schau nach vorn und lass den alten schei� zur�ck
wir gehen ein schritt nach vorn aber zwei zur�ck
bisher ein schritt nach vorn aber zwei zur�ck
ab heute ein schritt zwei schritt drei zum gl�ck
los gehts

alles kann besser werden
wir holen uns den himmel auf erden
alles soll besser werden
holn wir uns den himmel auf erden
und alles wird besser werden
wir holen uns den himmel auf erden
keiner muss sein leben mehr gef�hrden
einer der kostbarsten sch�tze auf erden

ich will raus aus dieser schei�e hier
doch ich wei� nicht wie das gehn soll
raus aus diesem schei� revier
doch ich wei� nicht wie es gehn soll
man sperrt mich hier in diesen bezirk
weil ich den rest der welt nicht sehn soll
ich werd aus diesem knast herausspaziern
wenn ich wei� wohin ich gehn soll
alles kann besser werden
wir holen uns den himmel auf erden
keiner muss sein leben mehr gef�hrden
einer der kostbarsten sch�tze auf erden (+kinderchor)

xavier naidoo + kinderchor:
alles kann ebsser werden
wir holen uns den himmel auf erden
alles soll besser werden
holn wir uns den himmel auf erden
alles wird besser werden
wir holen uns den himmel auf erden
keiner muss sein leben mehr gef�hrden
einer der kostbarsen sch�tze auf erden

megaloh + kinderchor:

ein schritt nach vorn aber zwei zur�ck
wir gehn ein schritt nach vorn aber zwei zur�ck
bisher ein schritt nach vorn aber zwei zur�ck
ab heute ein schritt zwei schritt drei zum gl�ck
(los gehts)

kinderchor:

ein schritt nach vorn aber zwei zur�ck
ein schritt zwei schritt drei zum gl�ck.

Meet Mr Khoo

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 15:41:51 GMT

hau wei says:
how's ur x ray tat day?

little miss sunshine says:
gonna see doc 2moro..
i dunno how to interpret d x ray..

hau wei says:
i tot u met tat day di?

little miss sunshine says:
i actually googled normal chest x ray and compare it with mine..
no ar..monday x ray..
wed doc.
gotta do appointment..
mafan..

hau wei says:
show me ur x ray
hahaha

little miss sunshine says:
fine doc..

hau wei says:
put like for 30 sec

little miss sunshine says:
got dots tho..

hau wei says:
a lot?
right lung
ok ok
can put down di

little miss sunshine says:
will die not?

hau wei says:
u cough got phlegm not?

little miss sunshine says:
lol..

hau wei says:
u siao po
slap u

little miss sunshine says:
no phlegm..
dry..
wat do u say?
there's another 1..
u wanna see?

hau wei says:
yea
i havent seen chest x ray from this angle before
dunno how to interpret

little miss sunshine says:
lol...
side view..
so the normal chest xray?
okie not?
whats d dots?

hau wei says:
dunno le
i feel those r normal la
since u dun hav cough with phelgm oso
no fever all

little miss sunshine says:
how come i cant see the size of my lungs?

hau wei says:
the lung covers the entire chest
unless u have pneumothorax
then u will see a space between ur lung and the chest wall
pneumo - air
thorax - chest
air in the chest

little miss sunshine says:
hohoho.. this is cool.. me likey this whole online diagnosis thingy..

hau wei says:
i will charge u next time
hahaha

PS : Pardon our typing errors and improper english usage.

Strength

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 15:41:29 GMT

Dear Baby,

It has been 4 months since you left me. Needless to say, I'm missing you very much, everyday, wondering about your wellbeing like I used to though I know that now you are very well taken care of. I still have to keep reminding myself that. I know I'm silly. I'm a strong strong girl, definitely can pull this through!

Yay! Christmas is around the corner. I love the atmosphere, the light, the stars, the angels, the tree, and the presents. They are so pretty! Christmas is indeed the best gift during dreadful winter time. God is awesome, isn't he? I just got myself a cute little Christmas-tree like light deco for my room today. It's now sitting with the small little gifts you bought me.

Baby, you've got to watch over me, right? I need strength to face and deal with my everyday's challenges and trails. You've got to help me to put myself together and protect me in every way you can, ok? Promise me?

I love you, my sayang.

Love,

Your dearest

Rhinose

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 10:11:55 GMT

This is a story about a tissue girl meets Mr Hay Fever and Mr Allergy Rhinitis.

Oh...she also meets Mr Thorax Radiology on the way.

Don't forget

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 22:30:46 GMT

I�ve got to swallow some humility pills!

Stop repeating the same bloody mistake.

I�ve lost once�

Stop punishing me...

Ibuprofen

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 13:52:49 GMT

Dear baby,

I miss you very much! How are you? Do you miss me? How's heaven like? Is it cool to live on the clouds? Do you get to see northern light every day? Do you wear Jesus-like rope and have halo? I'm worried about you, you know, thinking of you all the time. Though I know that you are now in the best place you could possibly be.

Things are fine on my side, running in and out with the hustle and bustle. At the end of the day, I'll just ponder and wish that you'll be here with me, and missing the moments waking up by your side.

Well, there's this footballer, Germany's goalkeeper Robert Enke just took own life a couple of days ago. There's a lot going on the media. His memorial and funeral service, it was just too much for me. It saddens me and at the same time I'm angry with him. People fight for their lives and would trade anything for another day. How I wish you were given a choice to live longer. But, that's nature. We are in no control of that. You just can't go against the nature. That's wrong and sinful. What more leaving his loved ones behind.

I watched MJ's this is it show yesterday. It was so surreal. Just few months ago, we were talking on the phone over his sudden death and watching his memorial service. And pfoooffs� the next thing, you left me.

People always leave. Famous, rich, poor, good, evil, noble, just that everyone leaves. So tell me baby, how do we value our lives? Or do we always need to put a value into everything and everyone in our lives?

Who and what matters?

It's hard for me to tell.

I've been searching for peace and serenity. I strive for my freedom and hunt for my happiness.

But, you can't plan or look for happiness. It just happens - simple joys such as humble before Him.

Likewise today, merely 5 months ago, I was complaining to you how painful it was to get rid one of my wisdom teeth. And you pampered me effortlessly. And today I had two of them extracted all at the same time. It was gruesome, the pain and the pressure just yuckkk. You were all I could ever think of.

Love,

Your sayang

Shell

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 01:22:40 GMT

Sometimes, I do wonder if knowledge does necessarily result in happiness. Of course, there's no boundary or extent on how much one could possibly know. You know, it's always the more the merrier kinda thing.

Sometimes, living inside a shell is not a bad thing. I guess that's what most people would choose to do - living blissfully in their comfort zone. After all, so what if there's some bloody-jackass-moron suicide bomber blasted Pakistan? So what, if a bloody new rocket just invaded the moon?

Do all these things even matter our lives?

Or do we choose to even allow these things to bother us?

Take my parents for example. You see when I was back in Malaysia for my summer break; my vision was clear and still is. I'm a BEACH person. I can trade anything for sun, sea and sand, anything. All I wanted was just a humble gateway to beaches in Indonesian and Thailand. That was when knowing too much spoilt my party - religion extremists, political unrest, natural disasters and etc and etc.

There I was, trapped in Bolehland, the safest country in whole wide world, ohhh of course and Germany. Just that, I wouldn't trade my parents for the world.

In some cases, being too alert or sensitive does not always simplify things. In fact, it complicates our lives. Making every decisions harder to reach and worst of it worries us!

Haha...

The effect of the coffee boost is failing�

Hence, my two cents will be continued�

P/S : Happy 26^th Birthday Michelle!! You're not just a year older but a year better!!

3 Months...

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 08:21:00 GMT

without you...

I�m missing you every day, baby!

Oh baby, this is hard. At times, I don�t have a clear set of mind, the moment of clarity and peace.

You were always there; I turned to you when I can�t seem to tell what was right and what was wrong. You weighed all the factors, the out coming advantages or the imminent dangers. You soothed me when I can�t make up my mind, telling me to take my time and eventually calmed me down.

The fact that I�m writing everything in past tense is just unreal.

How I wish I could cherish you more when you were around - Simple things like making more regular trips to Aachen to enjoying your lovely voice when you sang to me. How I wish you could be the first person to see me jumping for joy and to hear me crying in sorrow. How I wish I could turn back time.

I�m longing for your presence, care, thoughtfulness, wisdom and above all your love. Your attention to detail amazed me. I want to give it back to you. Tenfold, hundredfold.

If only, I had the chance..

i'm Alive

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 23:04:43 GMT

Seize the day!

P/S : Found this song as I was running through his playlist. Felt in love with it the moment it was played! Thank you, baby!